Getting Angry

What does it say to your non-Christian co-workers when you get very angry at them and eventually blow up in their face? So, I did that today, and I felt horrible. I've since apologized and everything seems to be fine. But my question is, does that lessen your "Christian" reputation in their eyes? Everyone is human, right? Everyone gets angry, right? But do non-Christians understand that? In their eyes, am I now just a hypocrit?

I have tried harder than anything to be different here at work, because I am the only Christian employee in this entire hotel. Working only with Christians my whole life has not prepared me for this. Is it bad that I want to go back to working in a Christian environment? Is it bad that I hate going to work sometimes and I know it shows on my face and in my work ethic?

Any opinions?